Well, my third dance with the Colorado Bar Exam monster is now over. I don’t feel any relief though. I’m still numb, but I also have the overwhelming urge to put a gun in my mouth and cry myself to sleep tonight.
I feel like I failed the bar again. When time was called at the end of the afternoon MBE and the test materials were being gathered up, I had the sudden urge to cry. It probably doesn’t help that the lady in charge of administering the bar exam knows me. SHE KNOWS ME!!! You know it’s bad when not only do the proctors, but also the bar exam administrator, know you by name. One of my proctors was the same one from February, and when she saw me she came over and said “Hey FBE!” I just hope the others around me didn’t figure out it wasn’t my first time.
However, I did feel better knowing that there was at least one fellow repeater in the facility with me, Cyber Janitor. I think I spotted him but I’m not sure since he didn’t have facial hair. Was that you who approached the stage at the front to speak with the bar exam administrator during the afternoon MBE?
On the bright side, it did feel like the bar exam went more quickly this time around. I remember how the first bar exam felt like a marathon, but this time around it wasn’t agonizingly long. I can’t believe some of you have to endure a third day of the bar exam though! I’m definitely out of steam at this point.